Finn Haunted Doll ~ 18" German Made Clay Vessel ~ Paranormal ~ SAD ~ Emotional ~ Needs a Better Situation

TW: suicide

Finn was sent to us from a small town in Germany.  He was found after a suicide in a trailer on some land behind a grocery store.  I was told that this vessel was "heard to be crying" from the trailer, and the investigator who grabbed him from there told us there had been a suicide years prior in that same trailer. Nobody had lived there since.  It was a "well-known spooky abandoned place to drink at".   When he arrived, it was as if we could feel his sadness from outside of the box.  Lisa was still around at that time and she said she felt the air come out of her lungs as if she had been passionately sobbing.  I have felt this from him as well.  Such utter complete sadness that it takes your breath away.  Hate to say it, but he's too sad for me. I feel bad because I can't help him. He's stuck in his sadness, and I can do nothing.  I am hoping that someone with a lot more time and energy than me could be a better caregiver than I am.  Plus, I think he would do so much better in a home that's more "young and fun" than this house, with all the old folks here.  Finn has shown me his life, and the sadness inside.  he was gay before it was ok to come out, and even if it HAD been OK, not in HIS family.  His father was a very religious man, and his mother was very meek and submissive.  He knew he was not welcome in the house without ever saying a word.  He moved out right after high school. He had never been an outgoing person.  This was the 1960s, and he had tried to get out more and meet people.  He did enjoy going to the gay clubs in the bigger cities, but there was nothing like that near his trailer.  He would go out on the weekends and had a really good time, but nobody really ever clicked with him.  Not until he met Griffon.  Griffon accepted him, and may have even loved him in his own way.  They met when Finn started taking classes at the local college.  Finn says they had a whirlwind romance, but his boyfriend was a player.  Finn fell in love HARD, and this was his first love so it was twice as hard.  Finn is not the kind of guy who understands about being promiscuous.  He had only ever seen his parent's relationship.  He thought that the same rule applied to his relationships: no cheating, and loyalty for life.  When he realized his boyfriend was unfaithful, he could not bear it.  Not at all.  He took his own life.  His body was not found for months afterward.  He had no other friends and his family had never checked on him.  I feel so bad for Finn.  I just wish he had been born 20 or 30 years later and been able to be himself and find happiness.  But that was not the case.  There is such a sadness that surrounds Finn, it can be overwhelming.  My gay friends who have had Finn at their house, they tell me the sadness is muted when he is over there, not nearly as strong as here.  this is why I really hope he gets adopted by a gay household.  Finn is an amazing Dreamweaver.  He is a special guy in our collection, and I feel like he would be so much happier in a house that has more people, more parties, more music, and more company than we get.  He needs a LIFE. He needs to see happy gay people living life.  We are old and boring for the most part.  Finn is a soft-spoken man, and he whispers a lot.  The PSB7 works really well for him.  He has used the Ouija and automatic writing, and I feel like he is very strong with telepathy too.  When he wants to be heard, he lets himself be heard.  I think he would do well with just about anyone, but I don't want him to be sad anymore.  Finn needs to be with a caregiver who is going to treat him with loving care and respect.  His vessel really shows him, his eyes are so sad all the time.  We often hear him speaking in German, but he talks to us in English.  

About the doll: He is 18" tall and will not come with a doll stand